Life of A Freaking Fantastic Fangirl

I’m not quite over you, you know. Oh sure, I’m over chasing you. I’m over trying to convince you to give me a chance, and I’m over the idea that we’re ever going to be together. That much is for sure. But I still think of you every day, still see you in everything I do. I can’t help but compare every little part of you to the parts of people around me, and wonder how long it will take me to find someone who fits me as well as you do, who I love as much as I loved you. And if tomorrow you came running back to me with an apology on your lips and your heart in your hands, I would take it without a second thought, without a moments hesitation. No, I’m not over you.  At this point, I’m not sure if I ever will be.  I'd still do anything for you.

When it didn't even start. How much it pains me to almost get something that I've wanted so badly but never being truly mine. The heart really does want what it wants.

It's February. Omg, one month has already passed in 2015 and I'm still not gorgeous yet. So I took a half step closer to my 2015 goal of getting my license but signing up at SSDC. Now I have to pass my BTT before I can start taking practical lessons. BTT's in April so... Let's see how much I procrastinate till then. So I kinda have another group of friends now and I go home with them instead of Izzyan and Boy. Idk, I feel bad but I have wondered before why the heck I wait for them when they don't even walk all the way out. Ah well, sometimes I have to think about me, no? And apparently I'm not as invisible as I think I am because someone noticed me. Weird feeling but he has a girlfriend so no. I wouldn't like it if my boyfriend was texting someone else. Oh and yesterday, I talked to someone whom I know but have never ever spoken to before. It took almost 2 years lol. She started talking first so that was good because I'm too much of a chicken to ...