Life of A Freaking Fantastic Fangirl

Have you ever had one of those dreams that when you wake up, you feel exactly like what you were feeling in that dream and it all felt so real? Like you felt super happy in the dream and when you wake up, you feel super happy too and sometimes you don't even remember why. Yeah, I had one of those dreams recently and I can't seem to get it out of my mind. I don't recall much of the dream only certain parts. I do remember waking up with this sad, bittersweet feeling. Ok, so what I recall is 2 old ladies. Idk who. I think they're in love with each other but of course they can't show it because society. I have a feeling the dream was longer but I really can't remember it. I do remember the end though, when they go into a room and then they look at each other and there's a smile and then they're dancing, without a care in the world. I remember feeling like that was their moment, like they were finally together. And then I woke up, feeling this sad, ...

"No farewell words were spoken, no time to say goodbye, you were gone before we knew it, and only God knows why. - Anonymous"  My heart aches whenever I read news about the plane. I felt this incredible sadness upon hearing the news that it had crashed. I guess a part of me wanted to hope that it was still around somewhere, waiting to be rescued. But the rational part of me knew that after 2 weeks, it would be a miracle. It makes me wonder what really happened on board. What went through the passengers' minds at the moment when they realized that the plane was going down and they could do nothing about it. The word 'ended' was used in the announcement and it really grabs at you that things end. We're not gonna live forever, the world is not gonna be here forever. It made me think how I do take each day for granted, like if I can't do it today, I'll just do it tomorrow. I take for granted the fact that tomorrow will come. What if it doesn'...

So the family will be going to Krabi this June. Air tix are booked and we should be booking the hotel soon. Deciding to stay at this resort because if we're too lazy at least we can lepak there. Lol So I've decided to get my driver's license. Probably by the end of this year. Gotta save money. License then I can think about getting my degree. Kinda interested to continue my sports studies although I dk if sports is a good career. Hahaha. But there's a high chance I might just stick to now and chase specialist roles and higher PB grades and promotions. Might be going to Bangkok with the colleagues. Possibly in August. I think no more trips. Should start planning and saving for Tokyo and Seoul next year. Hopefully. Then Manchester in a couple of years. That trip needs loadssss of money. LOL Gonna enjoy life while I'm still young and able to do all this. Cause what's the point of life if you're not living it?

So somehow we came to this part about first impressions and I asked Ain what her first impression of me was and she said "Pendiam". Hakiim said the same thing. Izzy said the same thing. Boy said I looked sombong. Sha already said that and I agree so ya. Then they all said the same thing. That I'm crazy. Hahahaha. Like after knowing me, their first impression totally shattered and now they all think I'm crazy. Which I do agree. Lol. I only joke around and make stupid ass remarks with people I know and am comfortable with. Like I'll make weird gestures and faces and speak in weird accents. I think Ain is most surprised at some of the things I say and do, lol, cause she laughs and tells me to keep quiet. I guess I should change the first impression people have of me but I can't. I always walk around with my head down and don't smile at people. Apparently Ain said I have the face that doesn't smile so it's hard for people to smile at me. No w...

Well, should probably update. Another month has passed. KL trip was great. First time I've been overseas with friends. Had on my bands so the flight wasn't that terrible but I think I didn't use it properly going back so I felt so nauseous. Gosh. I think if I'm going on longer flights, I'll go get the patch or I'll probably die. Hahaha. We spent so long just getting to the darn hotel cause we needed to take a bus, train then the LRT. The room was nice, two bedrooms with awesome views of the Petronas Twin Towers. We spent most of the time shopping and eating Subway. Bought quite a lot of stuff and should have brought a luggage bag along cause my backpack was heavy. Izzy and I were struggling when we first packed everything and made horrible noises. Hahaha. Spent the rest of the off days going out to two movies. First day back was so blah, I didn't have no mood to work. Probably gonna take another long break in June. If what ze sissies plan is correct,...