Life of A Freaking Fantastic Fangirl

I'm so frustrated with myself. Like why can't I get over something or not be bothered by it. I know I shouldn't be bothered by it and it frustrates the heck out of me when I am. Like geez. Is there an off switch for feelings? I just wanna be a robot like Sheldon Cooper. A part of me wishes you'd go so I don't have to go through the pain of seeing you every day and not being able to talk to you or spend time with you. I knew I'd be like this when I told myself I wouldn't. Dammit. I don't know. I'm really tired of feeling shitty, I just want to be... I'm not too sure. Normal. I watched a movie yesterday and it gave me all the feels because that could be me, 20 years down the road, always holding a flame for someone who can never be mine. I'll probably die a sad old woman surrounded by... I don't even like cats that much.'

We keep behind closed doors Every time I see you, I die a little more Stolen moments that we steal as the curtain falls It'll never be enough As you drive me to my house I can't stop these silent tears from rolling down You and I both have to hide on the outside Where I can't be yours and you can't be mine But I know this, we got a love that is homeless Why can't I hold you in the street? Why can't I kiss you on the dance floor? I wish that it could be like that Why can't it be like that? Cause I'm yours Why can't I say that I'm in love? I wanna shout it from the rooftops I wish that it could be like that Why can't it be like that? Cause I'm yours It's obvious you're meant for me Every piece of you, it just fits perfectly Every second, every thought, I'm in so deep But I'll never show it on my face But we know this, we got a love that is hopeless Why can't you ...

Just got back from Tokyo 2 days ago and it was awesome. Like seriously. When can I go back? So a summary of my week long trip. Day 1: Roppongi (Sumiyakiya) + Tokyo Tower Day 2: Odaiba + Shibuya Day 3: Disneyland +Shibuya (Gyumon) Day 4: Akihabara + Asakusa (Naritaya + Nakamise Street) + Tokyo Sky Tree Day 5: Imperial Palace + Ameyayokocho + Ikkebukuro (Pokemon Centre + J-World + Sakura) Day 6: Shinjuku Park + Shibuya (Ippin) Day 7: Asakusa + Shibuya (Hanasakaji-san) Day 8: Akihabara + Tokyo Station + Flying off Fun trip because of the amazing people. Hahaha too much laughter and lame jokes and Syak and I trying to speak all the Japanese we knew. Tokyo is strange. Land of vending machines but no trash bins in sight. But the place is clean though and their hospitality is amazing. The weather was just nice, not too cold and I think I adjusted to it fairly well cause I could walk around with just a long sleeve...