It's done

I'm not bitter about how things ended.

I'm bitter that I was the only one fighting to save things when it should have ended way earlier. I'm so stupid for still clinging on. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid.

I think I'm fine but the memories... I wish I could delete the memories. It all comes rushing back and I feel this hollow feeling in my chest and it gets a little bit hard to breathe.

I'm gonna be fine.

I have to be.

The thing I call bullshit on is you said change is the only constant but how come you're the only one who doesn't change?

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