Life
Ok. I just need to get my feelings out. So I found out yesterday that a friend from secondary school's younger brother passed away. Scrolling through FB, I couldn't believe it when I saw her post.
I cannot imagine the pain she's going through. Losing a sibling isn't like losing a parent or a grandparent. Not that it doesn't hurt but losing a sibling, especially when he's still so young, too young, it's another kind of pain. The fact that he was healthy and there wasn't any problems before makes it so terrible.
It made me think how I'd feel if I lost a sister. The pain would be unimaginable. Life would be so different. You're supposed to grow up together, grow old together. Watch how their lives unfold. Now there's a gaping hole, where there used to be 4, there's now 3. I... cannot comprehend that.
Tas said everything happens for a reason and I agree. I just... cannot accept that. That's why we shouldn't take things for granted which I try to remember but it's hard to. Life just goes on and on, even when one life stops. We keep thinking we'll see them tomorrow, or later but what if tomorrow never comes. Or later never happens. Trying to live in the moment, that's what they all say right, is hard. Our lives are constantly thinking about what to do after.
I guess this made me reevaluate life. Made me pause and think. I'm not gonna say I'll not take things for granted but I'll try to appreciate and value the people around me more.
Cause they could just be gone in a moment.
And you'll wonder for the rest of your life all the what ifs.
I cannot imagine the pain she's going through. Losing a sibling isn't like losing a parent or a grandparent. Not that it doesn't hurt but losing a sibling, especially when he's still so young, too young, it's another kind of pain. The fact that he was healthy and there wasn't any problems before makes it so terrible.
It made me think how I'd feel if I lost a sister. The pain would be unimaginable. Life would be so different. You're supposed to grow up together, grow old together. Watch how their lives unfold. Now there's a gaping hole, where there used to be 4, there's now 3. I... cannot comprehend that.
Tas said everything happens for a reason and I agree. I just... cannot accept that. That's why we shouldn't take things for granted which I try to remember but it's hard to. Life just goes on and on, even when one life stops. We keep thinking we'll see them tomorrow, or later but what if tomorrow never comes. Or later never happens. Trying to live in the moment, that's what they all say right, is hard. Our lives are constantly thinking about what to do after.
I guess this made me reevaluate life. Made me pause and think. I'm not gonna say I'll not take things for granted but I'll try to appreciate and value the people around me more.
Cause they could just be gone in a moment.
And you'll wonder for the rest of your life all the what ifs.
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