Life of A Freaking Fantastic Fangirl

Even I'm tired of myself.

FINALLY AFTER 2 MONTHS I GET TO DO TRAIN. Not with my favourite kakak eiacs unfortunately. I swear fate keeps us apart. I was doing AC 1st night while she was doing train and this night shift, she was doing her beloved AC roster while I was doing train. WAEEEEE. At least there was Ainey so yay. Night picnic with them during break. Then Ainey and I saw an empty mattress and immediately slept on it. Haha. I woke up to my alarm which is rare. We were both surprised and immediately woke up. Then laid back down because we were so tired. The struggle was real yo. Anyway, I felt cheated out of a few more minutes of sleep because we arrived at train and only Willis was there. The rest all arrived at like 5:20am. Ainey tried to get me to OT but I was like nahhhhh. Why can't night shifts be like this lol. Please can I get to do train at least once every two cycles ah favour. With my kakak Tas ah please ah please. Thanks. Went to the laundromat with Ama to wash o...

"An attachment grew up. What is an attachment? It is the most difficult of all the human interrelationships to explain, because it is the vaguest, the most impalpable. It has all the good points of love, and none of its drawbacks. No jealousy, no quarrels, no greed to possess, no fear of losing possession, no hatred (which is very much a part of love), no surge of passion and no hangover afterward. It never reaches the heights, and it never reaches the depths. As a rule it comes on subtly. As theirs did. As a rule the two involved are not even aware of it at first. As they were not. As a rule it only becomes noticeable when it is interrupted in some way, or broken off by circumstances. As theirs was. In other words, its presence only becomes known in its absence. It is only missed after it stops. While it is still going on, little thought is given to it, because little thought needs to be. It is pleasant to meet, it is pleasant to be together. To put your shopping packages down ...

So they started work on our new toilets yesterday. Basically I came home to a warzone. It was mothaeffin' dusty. We have this shitty temp toilet. It's very small and I don't feel safe using it with my bare feet but at least there's hot water. I feel like we're camping somehow cause we wear slippers around the house because it's just too dusty and dirty. Had to wake up early today to shower. I actually didn't feel like waking up at all, I was just so tired after coming home late last night. Oh yes, last night. Met Shahidah for a random Nando's dinner at Lot One. She was late. As usual. Tsk, why did God not bless me with punctual friends. I think I waited 30 mins for her. Nando's is nothing to shout about, idk why it's so popular in the UK. We walked around Lot One and bumped into Sob while queuing up at the atm. She casually walked past and remarked "Kau excited eh." HAHAHA. I didn't realise I was talking very loudly. Shah and ...

I knew the second I met you that there was something about you I needed. Turns out it wasn't something about you at all. It was just you. 

How is it 3 more months and then 2014 is gone. OMGAHHHH. I didn't get leave for this month which means I'm really looking forward to November when I can go on a whole cycle. If I get la. Oh. Did OWC on Sunday night with Fizah which was awesome cause working is way more fun when you have a friend. So she told me a lot of stuff which isn't safe to post here and besides, I told her I won't tell anyone. I'm a secrets keeper. Well whatever she told me definitely blew my mind but it didn't shock me too much. I mean, it just confirmed whatever suspicions I had and I'm not one to judge people. Anyway, after clearing cars forever, it finally stopped at 7pm. Went to the toilet at the cargo block. First time I went there after dark. A bit creepy but not as scary when you have someone else with you. Then after talking for a while, the other girls decided to go to the toilet on the 3rd floor at the cargo ST office, beside the SSM lab, so we went there too. Th...

Damn. I've not posted anything since August and now September is ending. Hahaha. Erm, nothing much has happened. This is the first month in a long time that I don't have any leave so it's a slow, mind-numbing process of working all day err day. I think I'm dying slowly inside. I'm going through a rollercoaster of emotions which aren't safe to be put here. Let's just say I need my head to rule over my stupid heart. My dad's birthday is coming up. Idk what to get him. 2 more months till Bangkok. I can do this. Might be going on holiday with Sha in Jan. I think it's between Bintan or Tioman. Not sure. I kinda wanna go on a cruise after what Syakilla and I discussed yesterday. It sounds friggin awesome. September ending means we have only 3 more months till the end of the year. Time really does zoom by when you're 'having fun' eh?