Life of A Freaking Fantastic Fangirl

Almost nearing the end of April and then it's May which means half a year is almost gone. Omg, where did all the time go. Got my PCL for May. Not the day I wanted but it does mean that I'm only gonna come to work for one day during that cycle since I'll be going for base course the next week. Wooooo. I get like 3 free off days lol. Although it does mean that I'm going back to work for night shift. Boo. I think Tokyo might be better with other people because I wanna go to all the theme parks like omg, Tokyo has Disney Land, Disney Sea and USJ which has Harry Potter world. Apparently, it's ideal to go during the last week of March and first week of April but idk yet, should probably start planning nearing the end of the year. Here's one of the songs I'm currently addicted to. Such an emotional song imo.

The next three destinations on my travel list. After that, I should stop travelling and start saving for next year's adventures lol. Krabi in June which is like 2 months away which is 2 months too long I say. A short getaway to Bintan with Shah and hopefully Sa during my birthday. JZ can't go though. Boo. The thing about going on holidays with friends is you can sort of choose the more expensive hotels because you'll be splitting the cost lol. Managed to convince them to postpone Bangkok to September. I didn't feel like going in August because I already made up my mind about spending my birthday with ze a.s.s-es. Besides, I don't think we can all get leave because we were planning to go during night shift. That night shift falls on a weekend also. Travel travel travel. Now when will I go to Tokyo. I kinda wanna go solo but I'm scared also and Idk if it will be fun to go alone. Haha

1/3 of the year has gone by. Time flies when you're having fu- working. Yup. I swear work is just an endless cycle. Not that I hate it but sometimes I'm surprised at how fast a cycle ends. Like today is already my off day and tomorrow another cycle starts. No leave for April so meh. Went for shooting on Wednesday. Hancur. If you were standing right in front of me and I was gonna shoot you, you'd probably live. Or I'd hit your crotch even though I'm aiming for you chest. I always like the after work feel especially when it's our off day the next day. Everyone is happy and in a good mood and the locker room is kecoh. Haha. I swear other teams probably think our team is crazy. --- Met Sofia today after work. Basically it was her talking about my confirmation and this appraisal thingy. I was actually supposed to go first but then Abang Mas told me to go change because he wanted to go see her first. Haha. Listened mostly but did say stupid and lame things...

Have you ever had one of those dreams that when you wake up, you feel exactly like what you were feeling in that dream and it all felt so real? Like you felt super happy in the dream and when you wake up, you feel super happy too and sometimes you don't even remember why. Yeah, I had one of those dreams recently and I can't seem to get it out of my mind. I don't recall much of the dream only certain parts. I do remember waking up with this sad, bittersweet feeling. Ok, so what I recall is 2 old ladies. Idk who. I think they're in love with each other but of course they can't show it because society. I have a feeling the dream was longer but I really can't remember it. I do remember the end though, when they go into a room and then they look at each other and there's a smile and then they're dancing, without a care in the world. I remember feeling like that was their moment, like they were finally together. And then I woke up, feeling this sad, ...

"No farewell words were spoken, no time to say goodbye, you were gone before we knew it, and only God knows why. - Anonymous"  My heart aches whenever I read news about the plane. I felt this incredible sadness upon hearing the news that it had crashed. I guess a part of me wanted to hope that it was still around somewhere, waiting to be rescued. But the rational part of me knew that after 2 weeks, it would be a miracle. It makes me wonder what really happened on board. What went through the passengers' minds at the moment when they realized that the plane was going down and they could do nothing about it. The word 'ended' was used in the announcement and it really grabs at you that things end. We're not gonna live forever, the world is not gonna be here forever. It made me think how I do take each day for granted, like if I can't do it today, I'll just do it tomorrow. I take for granted the fact that tomorrow will come. What if it doesn'...

So the family will be going to Krabi this June. Air tix are booked and we should be booking the hotel soon. Deciding to stay at this resort because if we're too lazy at least we can lepak there. Lol So I've decided to get my driver's license. Probably by the end of this year. Gotta save money. License then I can think about getting my degree. Kinda interested to continue my sports studies although I dk if sports is a good career. Hahaha. But there's a high chance I might just stick to now and chase specialist roles and higher PB grades and promotions. Might be going to Bangkok with the colleagues. Possibly in August. I think no more trips. Should start planning and saving for Tokyo and Seoul next year. Hopefully. Then Manchester in a couple of years. That trip needs loadssss of money. LOL Gonna enjoy life while I'm still young and able to do all this. Cause what's the point of life if you're not living it?

So somehow we came to this part about first impressions and I asked Ain what her first impression of me was and she said "Pendiam". Hakiim said the same thing. Izzy said the same thing. Boy said I looked sombong. Sha already said that and I agree so ya. Then they all said the same thing. That I'm crazy. Hahahaha. Like after knowing me, their first impression totally shattered and now they all think I'm crazy. Which I do agree. Lol. I only joke around and make stupid ass remarks with people I know and am comfortable with. Like I'll make weird gestures and faces and speak in weird accents. I think Ain is most surprised at some of the things I say and do, lol, cause she laughs and tells me to keep quiet. I guess I should change the first impression people have of me but I can't. I always walk around with my head down and don't smile at people. Apparently Ain said I have the face that doesn't smile so it's hard for people to smile at me. No w...